The school, the frustration and the calm before the storm.

So, since the start of the week, school came back so...eh..well, even less free time. Anyway, now I have to go through an initiation for the whole week by looking like a nerd....yeah it's stupid... and because of that i will not be able to see Zero...Argh!...but there always saturday if I don't work, and I hope so since it would be one of the rare time where my mother is in town. It would then be easier to prensents her to my family..anyway. I had a pretty nice evening listening to some Chrono Cross remiexes and video...well that was until I heard of the news that I feared...my best friend's girlfriend left him(I sure hope she'll give me my Chrono Cross back soon...hrm, out of subject!)! I couldn't believe what I saw on my cpu screen! And for one of the rare time...I was in "Berserk" mode and I have gone straight to his house since I needed the full story and that i didn't wanted to let Protoman(my best friend, it's a name Zero found, and it's easier to use) alone...If it wasn't for him, I would've got a really hell of a time going through the situation when my ex left me... and hey, If it wasn't for him I wouldn't have got any girlfriend at all!! Because he introduced me to the gang, my whole life changed....anyway, I just came back and i'll be going to sleep soon. But I said to him to call me whenever he wanted, he's acting like he's okay and strong but hey...I've gone through this so I know that sadness will catch up to him sometime near soon...Oh and Zero, when you'll read this...I know you wanted to kick his ass but let's just keep these kind of jokes out for now...it's the first time for him to be left(since it was the other way around the three times before...but I'm sure you already knew that...)Anyway...I'm okay now, but still sad for him...

Have a good night...
Love ya my little angel
CymicX/X, xxxxxx

The happiest moment of my life...followed by reality.

Yep, finally, me and Zero(She's tired of being called Yuna, so it'll be Zero from now on) have been able to see each other yesterday! It was supposed to be at 1h pm but I was already there at 12h pm...listening to my musics...trying to relax since I was in like a state of happienness mixed with nervosity. But at 13h I decided to wait by a tree outsite of the park(too much annoying kids). The first thing we've done was to give eachother a big hug(after all the time we wanted a real one...I'm not gonna say all the times we hugged since it'll be too long to enumerate) and then we took a walk to find a much quieter place, that we found under a tree in a vast field. Then, we showed our pictures album and continued to talk and oh, I almost forgot, she gave me this cute little bracelet that I'm wearing right now^^. I then asked my "10 minutes question"....It's really hard to ask like this...since I'm really shy(well...we're both...) and then we kissed each other for the first time... and let's just say that I was shaking on the inside after this(an overdrive of emotions maybe?...). And we apent the rest of the next hour in my room looking at some videos before we had to go...well mostly because I was working yesterday's afternoon(stupid schedule...hrmm). Anyway, I spent all the time at my job smiling and looking at the bracelet she made for me...hehe^^. We coul've been able to see eachother again today's afternoon but I'm working from 11am to 3pm...(very stupid schedule!!!!!!!)....Anyway, I guess I should go now If I don't want to be late for my job so....I'll dtop there for now.

And if Zero is reading this, Suki da yo!!!!^^
Have a nice day!
CymicX/X
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Nothing to do but to think, read and wait...

Well, another week with the same schedule as the last week so, no work until Thursday. These days I'm often going to the park to listen to my musics and to think, and today i took a little walk after that. And too, I'm playing my good'ol MM games a lot often these days, like I said, i can never tire of playing these. And this night, I spent most of my time reading...yes reading! I'm mainly reading some of the thousands of MMX Fanfics on Fanfictions.net. Tonight I read one which title was "Protoman X", I read the whole eleven chapters, and I can't wait for the next to be updated! But I might continue to search for more interesting fanfics tomorrow, reading really makes time go faster!...Anyway, like every day since 2 weeks ago, I'm thinking a lot about Yunie(that i call my little angel)... but at least there's only one week left before we'll finally be able to hold eachother in our arms so... I'm still not in the greatest of mood but I'm not depressed either^^. Anyway...time to go to sleep soon...I'll go take a shower and after I'll go directly to bed and tomorrow I'll surely be reading more fanfics or whatsoever...I'll find someting to be busy.

Have a good night!
CymicX XXXXXXXXXX

Back to work...

So, this morning I've gone to the mall to do some shopping...and finnally decided to wit the store next shipment. I was searching for something to hang on my wall like a shield or something but it was or not at my tastes or too costly...so I'll wait.And on another subject, the character(In my RO game) that I was talking about in my last post, finally became a blacksmith this morning, now, only lving to do. Then from 4pm to 10h20 pm i worked...I was supposed to finish at 9h30 pm but there was too much people to close! ...Anyway, when I came back, I was going to go to the park to listen to my musics and eat something(I've skipped diner). But I changed my plan when I saw that my sister was there. Instead, i walked with her until we arrived at the park, and I told her about "you know what" since she was too worried about that I was depressive/emotional these days when I saw her in the morning to do nothing to explain. And don't worry on that too, she's keeping the secret, we can trust her^^. Anyway... I'm still making a countdown of days left until I'll be able to see my little angel/Yunie, there're really times that her presence would help me...but I'll continue to wait for the well being of the relashionship...

Good night!
CymicX XXXXXXXXXXX ~Can't stop thinking about you~

So much free time...and nothing to do.

Well, like I said in my last message, I have 4 free days..and it's getting really boring when you have not really much to do. Yesterday I've gone to the park for an hour while listening to my CD and singing when no one was around....I continued my new game's save, I chatted for an hour with my mother later in the night and after, I've gone through Megaman X again(I can't get tired of this game). Today I tried to go to the park again with my CD but there was too much kids around and I prefer to be alone when I'm in the park....well, there may be one person that I would like with me at the park but..eh, you know why I can't. So instead, I'm listening to my CD on the stereo in the living room since there's no one in the house aside me...but I'm used to that. The only thing that I may do this afternoon is to continue one of my character on Ragnarok Online(Online RPG) because I really need it for my other character's sake(I'm building a merchant/blacksmith). Anyway, to anyone who would read this, I'll be online all day so feel free to come talk to me.

Have a nice day.
CymicX ~Suki da yo Yunie~
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